The weekend is about to come to an end.. Oh so sad. ...

Not to much new stuff has been going on the past few days really. I started play FFX its pissed me off. So I quit, I have almost went back everyday. It was already taking to much of my time. My quitting reason is " I played 5 or 8 hours something crazy like that and it would not let me save!" Stupid POS.... Oh well life goes on. Im back on club civic again. Not quite as active as I use to be. But still a member. I have also taken up spades again on yahoo.

Yea that it. Not anything else new.

Not to much new stuff has been going on the past few days really. I started play FFX its pissed me off. So I quit, I have almost went back everyday. It was already taking to much of my time. My quitting reason is " I played 5 or 8 hours something crazy like that and it would not let me save!" Stupid POS.... Oh well life goes on. Im back on club civic again. Not quite as active as I use to be. But still a member. I have also taken up spades again on yahoo.

Yea that it. Not anything else hew.

This morning I helped teach a two man set seminar... No one got hurt. Since it ended up being empty hand vs. broadsword. A few times Daniel and Josh got pretty close. But everyone left with two eyes and most major limbs.

I did my taxes last night... This is a good thing for me because Im getting money back this year. Going to soak it up while I still can.

This is also the first time in my life that I haven't been late.

I just got off the phone with Verizon wireless customer service. I was planning on getting some rude idiot that did not know what he/she was doing. But I ended up getting someone who had there crap together and was very very nice. I felt I like should tip them of something by the time I was done.

Things are getting back to normal once agian. Yea that means shorter blogs. I have to displace my time else were for the moment.

We need three day weekends...

I had dinner tonight with Chris & Jamie (Wills sister.) We are about to go get boba and watch 51 first dates. I think.

Just great my stomach is all tore up and I have a three hour drive to College Station... The time could start to increase..

muhaha.. Tomorrow I work then drive to College Station... Cant wait to get my groove on. Not!

Human life forms await me....

3 days in counting till Will comes home :)

Today started out great! I went to the doctors office like planned. Almost called in sick cuz I wanted to sleep in and stupid me I always the get first appointment of the day. Well really smart me. I got there 15 minutes early. Due to the fact that I am chronicle early everywhere I go. Assuming I am the only on going. So I get there early and they got me in EARLY!! Wow, what a first. Then just to tell how cool my doctor is... After it was all over took around 5 minutes maybe.

She said "You don't have insurace do you?"
I said "No."
She said "Ok today is a no charge."
So I am thinking she got to be kidding, or I did not hear that right. So I take the form up to the casher and it was FREE! What a deal... Then to top things off she gave me a FREE month of my medicine! So today I save like 160 bucks or something. Which really helps after the whole car thing last week.

Afterwards went on to kungfu since I got out so quick... We had our normal Tuesday meeting, for once is did not last forever and again. Work sucked today I did not do all that much. Just checked my email a lot.

Class tonight sucked! Started out with a five minute horse stance. Now I know a lot of you read my blog and don't understand that. So just think of the worse pain you have ever felt... Ok got it? Now add to that! Auhh, I know I am a stronger person for it in all. But sometimes I just want to say "ok this is crazy lets all just go home." Or out to eat as I said tonight. Which we all did. Went to Peking like we always do. If it were not for us they would probably go out of business. We had some good talks. Mainly my beer talking. I just have come to the conclusion that I sleep much better when I have a beer at night. I don't wake up as much during the night. Now as I told everyone tonight I can stop at anytime, lol. We also talked about how I am going to hit one of those stupid ETMC works who don't use the little cross over they built for them. I don't know what the deal is but they all walk out in front of me at night! Dressed in there pitch black scrubs. You would think people with that kind of education would have the sense to walk away from the moving car. When it happens if it already has not I will just refer them back to my blog tonight...

Today when I was home laying in bed reading I looked up at the poster on our bedroom wall. If you have ever been to our house you know it. Its the only picture we have up. Its the little eye chart you see when you go to the doctor. I have had an interest for quite sometime in this miracle eye set up Will has going. But never the time. So I was thinking why not now?? I for once have the time in my life to do try to do something like so. It seems in the past two years my eyesight has got super bad. So maybe if anything I can keep it were it is. I hope to see some improvement with in the future. My worst thing is really sticking to it. I am the worlds worst at putting thing off...

So as you have it I am going to get reading and working on 20/20 vision as my goal...

Big Will just left we play a game of MTG. I won, haha. We thought we would get clever and play the same deck against each other. However the decks we choose I have played more than any other deck. We also make a trip to the beer store. I am load up, atleast for tonight. No just kidding.

I feel like I really worked my butt off today. Normally I take more breaks mess around and stuff. But today I was hardcore all about getting crap done. Then I thought two long privates. We did kicks out the waazoo. My back hurts now due to it. Getting old, lol. You know I have an average age now of 26 and everything that comes along with it.

Im almost one more day closer to Friday just a few more hours and I am there. I have noticed that I am not eating as much. Probably cuz beer taste so darn good. Ahhh beer... No really though seems like I have not needed as much food or something. I don't know its weird. I just cooked a lot of hamburger helper so I should be good for the rest of the week.

I must really say these past few days have been so much better. The nights still suck. But atleast I am busy. I am almost getting use to being alone again. It does make since for it to happen. I mean it was only a month ago when I was all alone. So thinks now pretty much just feel the same. Only in a different place and no screaming Mother and her stupid boyfriend. I do know someone is out there waiting on me. Or better I should say waiting to come to me.

The same things don't make me sad that did a few days ago. I don't know if that is inhuman for not. It not that I don't miss Will. I still really do. Missing him like crazy. But it just easier to get by without now than it was a few days ago. I read Peters blog a week or so ago. Before Will was gone. He was talking about how much he missed his girlfriend on his last visit to Texas. I did not really understand all the much what he was talking about then. But now I know just what he meant.

I also just found out today that I will have to be taking a business trip in April to Dearpark. I think it somewhere near Houston. Its a some seminar on how to run a martial arts school. Or tips on running a martial arts school. I don't really know something along those lines. I tried to email Will today to see if he would like to go. But got no response. I went ahead and reserved him a spot. I figure better safe than sorry. In a way I am looking forward to it. I think it will be a good step.

Oh yea I also have the answer for whether or not we are taking the location we were looking at for our kungfu school... Its a no. The reason why is we were going to have to be in by the end of next month. Which does not give us much time. So we are back to our original plan (we really never left it) but to open in September. Its also a prime time for signing up new students. Where as March really sucks. Since everyone is going on vacation and wanting to take a break from everything. I feel much better about this. Gives me more time to mature, lol. All six months or something like that.

Well going to give yahoo games another shot. Was planning on going to bed however started some cloths. Anyone who has ever heard our washer knows you will get no sleep while it is working its little dyeing heart away.

Last night went better. I don't know if its because I had some company over made it easier. Or maybe its just time. Will and I talked last night for maybe 3 minutes, its was nice to hear his voice. But I don't think that's was did the trick. I would have liked to talk more. But it was his turn to drive. Rather them all be safe.

Tonight when ever Big Will gets off we are making a beer run to Kilgore. I am hoping that it will be another thing that helps the time pass. Not the beer, but the ride. Afterwards I just have to come home cook, eat, and try to sleep.

Tuesday is eating out with the kungfu class. I thought about not going this week to save money. But I don't want to eat any meals alone that I don't have to.

Wednesday is teaching then home to eat what I cook tonight.

Thursday night is eating at Sifus. That will be good.

And Friday night I will be down in College Station. So more goodness.

So really Wenseday night will be the only long night. Eh... So I hope. Today work is going to be jam packed Monday. There for maybe I wont have much time to think about anything other than my work. Saturday was pretty big with the test in all that I will have a lot to enter in the system.

I have also found my way back to yahoo games... Maybe not the best of things. I keep getting stupid stupid partners! Don't know how to play spades for anything.. I guess its all in fun. But I don't want to lose. People going nil with ace of spades. Just plain stupid. Oh well maybe I will have better luck tonight.

The days seem so long... I feel for someone who is truly alone. I went on the church this morning being that I was awake already. Was not able to really sleep last night. Woke up a lot though out the night, taking a moment to figure out where I was, with a feeling of emptiness. It seems all like a bad dream like I will wake up tomorrow and Will will be home. I feel so cheesy.... I cant seem to help it. Being in love is one of the greatest things on earth. Being away from the one you love so dearly is one of the worst.

The thing that gets me most is the thought of losing him. I know we will part at one point in life and meet up again in heaven. However I am not ready for that moment. Not that I am sure that I will ever be. I got to thinking today what if this is it. This past month was all I was ever going to get of Will. No more cut off. The time we have had is it and now it is all over. It makes me sad to think to it. (When you alone for hours on end you think of sad stuff, and lots of happy stuff.) But I would not give it back for the world. This past month has been quite far the best month of my entire life. However I can't help but want more.

Today was the first time in my life I was not ready to leave church. Normally I am starving and pray that we will get a early. But today I knew I would come home to an empty house and eat by myself. After Sunday school I went on to BIG church. I went and sat were we always do. Wills Mom was there. So we talked for awhile. It was really nice to chat with a familiar face. Share information between each other that we both knew each of us cared about.

I got a email today from Robert (Wills bestfriend.) He had some good advice that I am doing my best to follow. Not sleeping on off hours. Heck I am just trying to sleep durning normal (night that is.) Also to talk everyother day, if not every. Email does not count. I thought it did, but I see just why it doesn't.

Later on Big Will, Adam, and Daniel came over. We cooked and took shoots of vanilla rum (good stuff) and had ice cream with baileys Irish cream. Also watching the Boondock Saints, very good movie. It was nice to have some company around to talk with. Everytime in the movie where it got to a part that Will likes I wanted to tell them. Knowing they don't care, but just wanting to talk about him. More cheese I know. I have a one track mind. The safety of my husband.

I am getting close to the end of another day. I cant wait for it. I cant wait to be with people that care and love me. This weekend is going to be the best.

Over the past two days now I know Will and I have grown closer. To each other and the Lord. Maybe this is just one of Gods ways of showing us what we really mean to each other. To make the harder times easier to get though. To show us why we push ourselves through such. To give us answers when we are asking "Why did I married this person?" We grow stronger in each other and our faith everyday. Some days just more than others...

I really do have it good. I have great friends despite the fact they are scattered all over the country. I have the best husband on the face of the earth. We have true love, trust and care for each other. How many people can really say that? Its easy to start to look these things over. Which I must never do. However in the times of loneliness its hard.

One night down. Only a week to go. I cant keep going to blockbuster either, there to stinkin' high.

On an up note some guys from kungfu are coming over later on today to watch a movie. Would tell you what it is but I forgot the name. In order for me to remeber the name that would require me to get up and walk all the way from the computer to the living room. Yeh not going to happen this morning.

Better get ready for church....

I feel like such a loser... My husband is in another state. My bestfriend is in College Station. Im at home like old times watching movies and being bored out of my mind. I wish I just knew what to do. Pretty sad my two best friends in the world are gone right now.

I know I have only been around 19 years. Im just starting to wonder what I was doing all that time. I have only made two real friends, married one of them. Best decision I have ever made by the way. Its amazing how much you can miss two people.

Im at my new home now. That's right South Sneed Street. My first time to ever live on a really street. You know it has a name not a number. Not just some washed away oil top road. The funny thing is up until today it has not felt like home. Until later today. I took my sister home (my old home) I thought I might stick around watch some TV or something. But when I got there did not even feel right to take food out of the refrigerator. My ex dog Harley was really glad to see me. Man I wish I could bring her home with me. One of the other things I really miss. Just having a dog they really are great company, sad enough to say. Shes just to cool. I think Rocket and I will bond a little more, since shes the only living thing I have to talk with. Plus I lost her all this morning. Could not find her anywhere, long story....

Tonight is a first for me. Lots of new things in store. My first married night alone. My first married night to stay up late and watch movies. I think I will be doing a lot of movie watching this week. Thursday night I am going to Sifus house to eat dinner, kinda like old times. Then Friday im driving to College Station with Lauren to visit Cara. I cant wait. By the time Friday rolls around I think I will be a social vegetable. Will fills up 99.9% of my social life, his friends, his family, all his emails I get from him. I have gotten one email today. From him ofcourse, its been the highlight of my day so far.
yea Monday is really going to suck with no one to talk/email to. Hum... Guessing it will be kinda like now.

I also went to Brookshires today, buying food is no fun when its only for you. Now I see how people who live alone always have an empty fridge. So to make thing better I just bought alot of Ramon noodles... Yeh, not sure how that's better yet. But its fast.

I feel like such cheese.. Oh and I got my lip busted today at kungfu.. By who you ask?? Me! haha, yea just one of those things.. You know im good like that.

As you can tell I have not spoke to a human in past four hours, currently looking not to change. Oh yeh and to make matters worse Club Civic.com is down...

I now have two working headlights.... Info for anyone that has a Honda, pay someone to do it for you.. If my hands are to big. Just think yours are too!

Alright so on top of my car breaking down and paying 350 bucks to get it fixed... I also got pulled over tonight for a defective headlight, then got wrote up for no ID, fail to change address, and fail to change name.... Yeh so it all sucks today...

starting out the morning with car trouble, fun fun.....

Dawn of the Dead is be remade. So everyone needs to visit this link.. Help Will and I get into first place. Right now we hold second. Visit the link from every different computer you own :) School, work, whatever.

I have a problem I post all the time... I will probably lose my job due to this car site. No not really. But I spend every free second that i have on it. Club Civic Its a wonder place. I now have 400 post.. I am getting around 100 a week. Yes I have a problem and I dont want to stop :)

I have been married today for one month... Its been the best month of my life. Having someone love you as much as Will loves me is a great thing. I could not ever begin to explain. Its just one of those things... Life is just so great! I wish it were not so short.