I am babysitting the rest of the weekend for Bob. This is the first time I have ever done a "sleep over babysit" sure hope is not the last. His kids are very good but I have never been with any little kids for over 24 hours straight in my life that I know of. Other than me that is. We are also suppose to go see "Finding Nemo" today but now Ben says he does not like that movie that is no good. But 5 mintues ago everyone was all for the idea. Will still wants to go see the movie. What will I ever do??

Today I installed my white face gauges, I must say that they look awesome. I think they are going to look really cool at night. I also put my knee in a puddle of super glue. Now you ask how to you get a puddle of super glue. Well beats the heck out of me. I just peeled it all off and it hurt like H-E double hocky sticks. I guess I know what it feels like to wax. I will probably never have hair grow there agian. Which might not be such a bad thing.

R.I.P Tim

Today Tim died he was 18 years old and he worked with my Mom he died this morning around 8:30 am. They still dont know the cause of death. Tim and I also went to Middle School together. I did not know him very well but from what I could tell he was a pretty cool guy. He always did really nice things for me. He even bought these dragon covers for me car, they help keep the sun out. The whole thing still has not sunk in just yet. But it always seems to take a while. I know everyone says it and I get sick of hearing it sometimes. But we really dont know how lucky we are to have what we have and do what we do. I think sometimes how great it going to be when I get to heaven with all my friends. At the same time I really enjoy the time that God gives me here. I know I should be spending it better sometimes. So I intended to try more the spend my time better. When I say better I dont mean working on my car. I mean working for the Lord helping myself and others learn more about him. Its seems that I lose about two to three friends a year Tim is the first this year now just makes me wonder who is next? I always heard that they go in threes, and for my life that has seem to never prove wrong. One thing that is different than with Matts death is that we dont know what caused it. Tim as far as I know was the the type of person to do drugs. I just want to ask everyone to please pray for the family. I know they really need it at this time. They also lost there Father a few months ago. So they are going through a really tough time right now I am sure...

Last night we went to Shoguns for my Sister getting 4th in her class. (8th grade) Our cook was really hot, and he had really nice arms. So I thought what the heck I started talking with him. And well he thought I was 15, which most people think around 13. But it still sucked. But maybe he was real jerk. Guys that gooding looking have to be jerks I think its wrote down somewhere. But he sounded like really fun guy.

My phone is working out (not like it would get in the way). But its so pimp that when it rings it does not sound like your normal phone. So everytime I hear it I think it a video game or something.

Oh I also bought some new kungfu shoes last night because my with one were hurting my feet. Well turns out that it was not the shoe but just the sole that was in there. So I am going to be taking my new shoes back untill I really need them. They were pretty neat looking. Really different and only 26 bucks.

And the story lives on... Everyday I have off is ugly and raining. Man I wish the weather would just prove me wrong. The next few months are going to be really different, so I think. But maybe not they people I use to hang out with all the time. We really dont hang out at all anymore. Maybe once or twice a month. So if that once or twice is take away will it really be that much from different. This past Saturday a few of us guys went out to eat after class I think just getting to do more of that kinda stuff will help make up for the rest. Not that I am trying to replace people.

Well as many of you know I was with a phone for about 24 hours, it was horrible. I am not very happy with myself for getting one so soon after. But I was missing out on money making jobs. There for I had to put an end to it asap. So I have got a new phone now, a very cool one might I say. I can go online and check my email. Its a full color phone it does alot of neat things.

I missed my sisters 8th grade graduation last night. I did not think it was that big a deal (after all its just 8th grade) but now my famliy is mad at me for missing it. Go figer!

Aside from that this day just sucks I am so stink bored I have done all my work now just anwering the phone. Adam you are going to hate next Friday man. I feel for ya... I am not hungy but bored so I just want to eat something to make the time go by. I am going to get fat this summer.

I missed my sisters 8th grade graduation last night. I did not think it was that big a deal (after all its just 8th grade) but now my famliy is mad at me for missing it. Go figer!

Aside from that this day just sucks I am so stink bored I have done all my work now just anwering the phone. Adam you are going to hate next Friday man. I feel for ya... I am not hungy but bored so I just want to eat something to make the time go by. I am going to get fat this summer.

What is it with black ppl walking out in front off moving cars? They think they wont get hit cuz they black? Heck if I was that dark and harder to see I would be looking both ways!

Wed. us to be my day off, well not anymore ): Now its everyother Friday and Saturday. I cant say I really like the changes that have been made for the summer. But am going to try not to say much since its only for the summer. Only about a month and a half left till the surf trip (: Does anyone have a tent we could barrow? Just email me if you have one you would not mind me and a few friends using.

I just got off the phone with Matt after a good long chat. I am not really a phone person so it is unusual for me to talk well over an hour. We just mainly talked about how we dont know were our lifes are taking us. Nor do we know what we want. The one thing we both want is to just be happy with how we are doing things. I am but hes not. He has the chance to get out of the Army, do to medical. However it is treatable. Others think he should carry out his job with the army. I think if you are not happy and have the chance to get happy. Why not?

I dont know what I am going to do ten years from now I know I will be doing kungfu. That right there is enough for me. I know its not for others. And I might not live of to what other think I should. But as long as I am happy. Thats all I care about, and I feel that is ok. Maybe I wont be like everyone else and go to college, get married, have a family, and die. But thats what makes me who I am. I use to want to be rich and be able to have nice things. Now for some reason that does not matter to me. I just want to fall in love with a wonderful man. If I do kungfu by day and wait tables by night and thats what I love to do. Thats what I am going to do, I dont care what everyone else thinks I should do. I might be making a really bad choice. But just cause it did not workout for someone else does not mean that it would work out for me.

I got Pedros privates yesterday seeing as how he did not bother to show up/call... Which is really unlike him, I mean he never call really. But that is the frist time I can ever remember him just leaving Sifu hanging. Been late alot but always showed up. But to look at this in a good way I was there so I got to make more $money$.

If anyone is wondering about the weather today "yes is going to rain". How do I know well see I washed my car yesterday. So that means it must rain today. Ah I love my car I am wondering when the new is going to wear off. I was thinking it would be the frist time that car payment came around. But nope still did not bust my gut.

Drove back from Austin yesterday, the ride was not all that great. I cant say that I will be letting kids ride in my car with me ever agian. Or maybe just Kathryn. Jonathan made a HUGE mess with food crumbs in my set. John was almost an hour late from the time we were suppose to leave. Now see if Sifu would not have been riding with me I would have left him. See he did not bother to pick up a phone and even let anyone know he was going to be late. We also could not listen to an comdey cds because they might have bad words. And Sifu does not like anything other than 80s so I have no 80s cds. And we could not find a station, mean while on the way down Williams truck broke down about 3 times till we left it. So the trip in its self was an event.

Last night I was doing my form and my foot cought on the floor and i rolled my ankle (which sucked a blue moon). This morning its still kinda hurts just alittle, but its really tight. I dont know if that would mean anything, I think but Saturday morning it should feel ok I hope. Reguardless of how it feels I am going to have a great time this weekend. Ahhh, so much fun getting to hang out with my kung fu family and friends.

Oh something else to make things suck, I took my gauge cluster apart to repair a light that was out so that I could see my RPMs. Well I put it back together all the pieces, and well now none of my gauges work. So that means I can not fix it before we leave for Austin we either will be driving 50 or 100. But who will know you ask?? The cops! I so can not get a ticket... I just pray it starts to work, I am wondering if it has a fuse or something and maybe it blowen??? If anyone knows please call me let me know...

This rain sucks... I know the second I wash my car its going to rain. Ahh but hang out at the lake all weekend long is not to far away. I love summer :) Its really hot on Saturday morning for kungfu but other than that its great.

Yesterday I was up the school working on my forms for this weekend. I took a break and was getting a drink, and Sifu asked if I had my double broadsword with me. (and i did) He ended up teaching my half or more of some form in about 10 minutes. It was pretty cool, but sometimes I wonder what gets into our Sifus that causes them to do such things? I like the form its pretty basic form what I have seen other people do, which is perfect just what I need. I think it will really help me get alot of the spins down.

I started using the Crest White Strips, I cant wait to see if they really work. I have only used them for two days but I think they are working. There is a down side to them they make my teeth super senstive.

Yesterday I went up to the school to train on my forms for the tourment this coming weekend. I really just flat out suck, i cant belive that sifu even let me stay. However this is about the most that I have ever worked on my broadsword so it is looking the best it ever has. Which trust me is not saying much at all. I think anything that has to do with a sword I am horrible at. I like anything thats like a staff. I dont know how I will do this weekend, I suppose it really does not matter all that much, seems like everyone gets screwed at AAU tournments some way shape or form. I am not talking about just our school, but i hear other schools saying the same thing. Just to start things off, they have not even told us when registration is and the tourment is this sat. is that not crazy or what? And the address to the tourment site is wrong.

I started using the Crest White Strips, I cant wait to see if they really work. I have only used them for two days but I think they are working. There is a down side to them they make my teeth super senstive.

Yesterday I went up to the school to train on my forms for the tourment this coming weekend. I really just flat out suck, i cant belive that sifu even let me stay. However this is about the most that I have ever worked on my broadsword so it is looking the best it ever has. Which trust me is not saying much at all. I think anything that has to do with a sword I am horrible at. I like anything thats like a staff. I dont know how I will do this weekend, I suppose it really does not matter all that much, seems like everyone gets screwed at AAU tournments some way shape or form. I am not talking about just our school, but i hear other schools saying the same thing. Just to start things off, they have not even told us when registration is and the tourment is this sat. is that not crazy or what? And the address to the tourment site is wrong.

Last night was pretty cool it was Mikinleys birthday and a bunch of adults were there pretty much. We play alittle b-ball and stommped of all the men it was pretty cool. I was making 6&7 shots in a row back to back in all. It was pretty awesome. Afterwards I went to star bucks to hang out. There was this guy there from S. Africa he was really cool. He thought I was from Canada or somewhere up north, said that I talked funny. Hummm.... I guess that is a good thing. So sitting in the parking lot kinda sucked so we went back to the Fairs and took a really long walk (5miles) I am alittle sore today from it I think.

In alittle while Matt will be getting on a bus to go to Germany for two years. ( well a bus then a plane) All my friends are leaving me after the summer and going there own ways. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I have no urge to go to college but I assume that I will seeing that is just what you do when you are my age. All I want to do it work, do kungfu, read more in the Bible, and just work on becoming a better person. But those type of things dont seem to matter. Nor do they make you any great amount of money. But the Lord will provide in some way shape or form. And he knows me best so it will be the perfect amount of money for my life style. But back to not knowing what I want to do with my life, I have be thinking about going into the Army ALOT! I have not money for school *they give you money. I want to travel and see the world *they will pay for it. They only thing they are missing is kungfu. The only thing that I am not feeling for it is what most other tend to feel about there being nothing in Tyler for them. But I dont feel that way I use to but I feel there are alot of great things in Tyler for me I just have to find them. I use to think Tyler was just a sinking hell hole. But I was wrong Tyler is really a great place to live. I know there is alot better out there. But why would I want to leaving Tyler and my kungfu to go have someone yell at me? I just really have alot to think about before the next semister or school starts.....

Today is my Sifus youngest daughters birthday she one year old. Its really neat to get to watch her grow up, not just her I am sure it that way with anyone. I was to young when my sister was a baby. The only on my mind was whens dinner, and the Ninja Turtles. But getting to see her start to develop a personality, and do things she knows she not suppose to. Its really pretty cool. Seeing the good times like so, makings me thinks one day that I would like to have kids. On the other hand I get to see how Jonathan will torement his sisters untill they break into a horrible crying mode. That is not so cool. It makes me think that I need to create alittle blue button that I can push which then will vaporise all little kids in to another life form. Such as a dog or cat. However that cant be done at the moment so having kid.. doh got to go!

Wed. we went to Dallas Matt sold his car, and then we went and ate Thai. Afterwards that night we put blue neons on my car. We would of had two sets but Matt broke 3 bulbs so my car is not quite as bright as it would have been. But its all good, man I am already hungry....

I have been thinking about starting to keep a journal only in some type of note book. Blogger is great in all, but I would like to have something for my kids to read one day. (if my husband and I choose to have them) Blogger will probably not be around then and then all this stuff that I have writen (not like its worth crap) it will be gone.

Last night Matt, Chris, and myself striped some of the red paint off my car. So now it really looks like crap half of its gray with scraches, some is half red/gray, and the other is still red. So now the new plan is to sand it down take the oil off and just paint over. I must say its a pain in the butt. But it killed time and made time for good fellowship. On and we smelled like gas...

After all the drama I treated everyone to starbucks in B&N. I figered after all that the least I could do. Not to mention all I could aford to do since we are going to Dallas wed to get Boba and eat. I am thinking it will be alot of fun, plus we get boba :)

I have been sick the whole weekend, did not stop me from doing things. Just did not always feel so great doing them. My left eye has also been super red and you can see all the vains for the past two days. I did not hurt, only itchs every once in a while. So what could it be? Its not itching bad enough for pink eye.

For the past two month for so we have not been turning on the A/C, I must say that this really sucks. I was so stinkin hot last night, which I dont think is helping my cold.

What would we do if the earth were to start spining faster, faster, and the days were to get shorter and shorter??

I think I will be hanging out at the lake to night at Eastside park #4. The one right after sandy beach. If anyone would like to join I will be there around 8pm.

Yesterday was great I spent the day just driving around running erins. While doing I was able to make a decal thats awesome! But I will let everyone see it for them selfs. I suppose it will not be as cool to non-kungfu people.(weirdo's why would anyone not want to do kungfu?) I also came home and washed and waxed my car. So if anyone is wanting to know if it will rain today the answer is yes! Thats cool though I knew it would probably rain, I just wanted to wash it.