Today so far has been pretty good. I went to Daniels and played ball and cooked some bad ass food. Now I am back home about to watch American Pie 2. I don't really know why just seemed like something to do. There about to have friendly good bye sex.

I got the hook up... Yes indeed I did. I went this morning to get new glasses. Well the last time I wore glasses was along time ago and I would not even say I really wore them at that. So anyways I go next door from the kungfu school. The people there must really like me a lot. I go over there sometimes and play with there dogs. So the first cool thing was they actually make frames to fit my head! Go figure I was not swimming in them. So after a few minutes of trying different frames on I came back to the first ones I picked up and told them these were the ones. So we talking in all and I am just waiting on the price. Well they ended up giving me half off. They also let me correct my vision to 20/40 instead of 20/20 so they wont be super thick. The frames I got are pretty cool. I of course wont have them till Wed. no big deal or anything. They also do not weight 10 lbs. Times sure have changed.

Today is a great day I am very happy. Now if 8pm will just hurry up and roll around things will even be better.

We have got a full weekend ahead of us. Tomorrow night we are eating dinner with our Sunday school class in celebration of Amandas birthday. Afterwards I believe we will be hooking up with an old high school buddy of mine. I don't think we have seen each other in five years. We have not talked much since then either, but I am looking forward to it. I don't think its going to be weird or anything. Saturday morning we are waking up early and heading to Archer City. That's somewhere west Texas. So needless to say this is one of the first times in my life that I have no idea were we are going. So wish us luck Will is driving and anyone who knows Will and his directions... Well just wish us luck.

I don't think today is ever going to end... I am so bored... So slow today... So slow today...

Today I have started work at 9 I am now back home. Just getting ready to go back at 11:30-3:30 I don't have another private until 4:30. Once again I have a break at 5:30 and don't have to teach again till 6:30 talk about a long day.

I love these little comments. I am doing better from last night, just had a girl moment. Dont worry I did not yell at Will or anything crazy like that. Cara and I are going to lunch today, so things should be getting better.

I have been having a lot of hard times lately. Its been so bad that's its been giving me bad thoughts. First off it does not have anything to do with Will or our marriage. Its just other areas of my life. I don't have any friends outside of kung fu. Other than Cara and we never even see each other and we rarely talk. So its like were not really friends anymore but just buds in passing. I just really feel like I am losing a lot of my faith in God. The more and more I think about it the more and more I feel upset with him other things. I am to the point were I don't know what to do. At times I don't even want to be here, its like I would be better off dead than alive. I know we all have these thoughts at one time or another. But I am having mine once more and I am sure it wont be the last time. I just feel bad about the thoughts I keep having. I don't feel like I am being a very good Christian right now. I feel like God hates me or does not love me as much as he does others....

Tonight Will and I going to a game night at our Sunday school teachers house. They are grilling burgers and hot dogs... So I just finished cooking a cherry ring. Smells really good. I was thinking we should only take half and leave the other half for ourselves.

Only time will tell if things are going to change. I really hope that they do. I am going to do my best to stick it out though all of this... Since Sifu is still looking for another location for me to take over, which I really want to do. I think it could be good for all of us. Plus if people don't do right (whatever it maybe) they just wont work there. I am not going to feel sorry about telling them to fix something over and over then see no improvements and feel bad about telling them to walk. That's also the other cool thing about the instructor program is we will have instructors coming up all the time so that will be consistent help. Which will be a big plus.

[rant] The past couple of day or I should say weeks at work have really sucked... Its to the point were I have considered quitting my job and looking for work else where. It pisses me off that so many other schools are doing so much better than us. Due to our lazy employees and instructors. I just feel like we are really letting an professionalism that we ever had just slip right out our doors. Sign ups are getting really low. Its due to a number of reasons. I wont list them all now. But just trust me when I say we could be doing much better and it would not take much effort at all. One of our biggest mistakes is not calling people back. I have been calling so many people lately and I feel like I am the only one. Its also been to the point were I am not doing just my job but several others. Due to them not taking care of there shit. Which I just don't have time for.

We have started a new system to keep up with new enrollments attendance. Last night as I was leaving I was quick to see that the people who did not show up there cards were not pulled and they were not called. So today when I get there I will have to found out who was in class and start making calls. When I already have some much other work that I have to do. So its just getting to the point were I don't want to care anymore but I just cant help it.

I either want to work in a place that has there crap together or get a job somewhere were I don't care if they make money or not. Its just a paycheck that I am getting.

I have really been looking forward to us opening a second location. Thing have already not been handled the way that I would have wanted and the way I asked to being with. But I have been dealing with that. But what is getting to me more is the fact that I keep getting asked about it and I don't have crap to tell people. I wish everyone would just leave me alone about it until something happens. With the way Sifu is procrastinated about it I don't know that it will ever happen. I really want to do it but its getting more and more to the point where I just want to say "Look find someone else to do it cuz I an sick of standing around and people asking me all this crap because of word getting out to soon." I am going to take it to the limits just yet. But I am getting closer and closer each day I see people not doing there job. I wish people would just not get so convertible working at the school and treat it like a real job. Because that is what it is and no one seems to see it that way. I know I am going to go explode all of this on someone up there who does not want to hear about it. So I just pray that something is done before it gets to the point that I cant handle it anymore.

So needless to say everything has been sucking lately. I am just so blessed to have an understanding husband and that's there beside me no matter what I choose to do.

Blogger jsut did it to me again!! Its really starting to piss me off!

ok i just wrote a long post about this weekend. Needless to say blog was not working for me this weekend. So now that i am pissed if you want to know what happend go to Wills blog I am sure he said something about it.

Think a gallon of gas is expensive

This makes one think, and also puts things in perspective.

Diet Snapple 16 oz $1.29 ------$10.32 per gallon

Lipton Ice Tea 16 oz $1.19 ------ $9.52 per gallon

Gatorade 20 oz $1.59 ----- $10.17 per gallon

Ocean Spray 16 oz $1.25 ------ $10.00 per gallon

Brake Fluid 12 oz $3.15 ----- $33.60 per gallon

Vick's Nyquil 6 oz $8.35---- $178.13 per gallon

Pepto Bismol 4 oz $3.85 ---- $123.20 per gallon

Whiteout 7 oz $1.39 -- $25.42 per gallon

scope 1.5 oz $0.99 -----$84.48 per gallon

And this is the REAL KICKER...

Evian water 9 oz $1.49------.$21.19 per gallon?!

$21.19 for WATER - and the buyers don't even know the source.

So, the next time you're at the pump, be glad your car doesn't run on
water, Scope, or Whiteout, or God forbid Pepto Bismal or Nyquil.

Just a little humor to help ease the pain of your next trip to the pump...

Looks like we have quite the little storm rolling in.. I love it when it storms outside and I can just sit outside the house and enjoy it.

On top of the fact that my whole body hurts. I feel very sick to my stomach right now and I really need to yack... But I cant and it all just hurts.

Tonight Will and I worked out. Its has been the first time since we were married. You would be surprised how much I get asked "Do you guys workout together?" So tonight we did, we did forms, ran, forms, ran, and then forms. Needless to say I am about to die still at this point. I am so far out of shape. Unless you are considering round as a shape.

The A/C went out at work today there's a high chance that it will not be on tomorrow when I get there.

We just got back from seeing Suffocation in Deep Elem in Dallas. It was a pretty cool show. I like it a lot, seem to make a lot of friends there. Well random people would say hi to me. Not use to that, just a bit weird.

The best part what this place we ate, we had a major hook up. Before we could almost sit down they were just sitting food on our table. Stuff we did not even ask for. A lady we were with just asked us a few questions on what kinda food we like and bam just ordered for us. We never even saw a menu. It was pretty much like family style Chinese food. Only it was a place called "Kismec" I think. Still not 100% what kinda food it was. So at this point I am starting to worry about the bill, thinking we don't need to be spending this much money tonight. Then before I knew it desert was on its way, and it was the best I have ever had. Don't remember what it was either, but it was awesome. It was server with some Turkish coffee. Which any place that severs desert with coffee is good in my book. When the bill came it was under 60 bucks with five people eating. So needless to say we had an awesome dinner and a major hook up. Nice to be with someone that knows everyone. Oh yes one more thing, they also have a home made wine that was really good it had fresh fruit floating around in it.

Our hook up lady was pretty funny. She was very surprised that we were from Tyler, since she had never seen us before. As if Tyler was this little place we you know everyone.

Anyways we had an awesome time filled with great food and a lot of fun.

I am married and fat.... That does not make me happy at all. None of my pants fit right anymore they are all way way to tight. I cant sit down. Will just wants to buy new ones. But we have to start running. I don't know if its fat your my hips have gotten to big. But I don't like it...

I am married and fat.... That does not make me happy at all. None of my pants fit right anymore they are all way way to tight. I cant sit down. Will just wants to buy new ones. But we have to start running. I dont know if its fat your my hips have gotten to big. But I dont like it...

Today has been an interesting day... I was at Wal Mart while some kid tried to shoplift. I got to see him get hand cuffed and taken away. Its was kinda cool, to bad for him. Maybe he will learn. I am now ranking with in one of the top posters of my club civic forum.

Tomorrow Will and I are suppose to go to Dallas for a show with one of his friends from Agtoshit. Which they are now calling him wanting him to work weekends. He said yes. Things are starting to happen and I don't know why.

On a better note I was able to do something today that I have never been able to do. I have been trying for four years now. Got it today. Pretty happy about that.

Doh! There's been a big miss communication going up here today. No telling what how its going to workout. I just wish that I knew what was going on.

I get the 15th off, wahoa! That almost makes my day.

Last night Will had really bad gas, I think our covers still smell like shit...

I made it though the night I had some pretty weird dreams. I cant remember what they were about. All I remember is waking up and thinking how weird that was. Seems like the last few night I keep having crazy dreams... Wonder what they are mean, if anything at all?

Tonight was nice it was not a killer class really. It was actually the perfect class that I was needing, hit that spot. We had a guy from Taiwan drop into the school, he had done some mantis. He said I was the only one that moved right, and that I moved like a real Chinese girl. Whatever that is suppose to mean. Like non-Chinese people cant have good kungfu. I didn't take it that way I just thought it was funny that he put it in those terms... His English was not super or anything either, so that probably had something to do with the terminology.

After class we all went out for our usual Tuesday night feast. Tonight we choose Wing Stop, great place, awesome beans. Don't they are lo carb, oh well. Will and I ended up talking with Zach about some different trips in all. He told us about a pretty good deal to Cancun. Its away from all the tourist crap. Next time Im in Mexico all I want is R&R. The shopping is just not all what they build it up to be.

Now that we have two machines up and running I can say for sure you will see more blogging. Its much nicer when you can both knock it out at the same time. Rather than wasting time changing out. Will has now started blogging again. I know a lot of you guys thought he had fallen off the face of the earth, or I had just beat him up to bad. So with that being said forkmantis is up and running so you can go check it out. For the time being I have the better site :) Sure it wont be for long.

I went ahead and got on up this morning with Will. Since he was able to sleep in late till 7:15 made it a lot easier... Not that I have a problem with getting up even earlier. I just hate being board in the mornings. Since I do not go to work and get off that the same time as normal people. It just seems right to sleep in till the last possible minute.

I have started drinking the shakes in the morning instead of eat as many bowls of sugar (cereal.) I think it has something in it that makes it were I don't get hungry till really late in the afternoon. Its kinda cool, although I would eat all day long if I could. Speaking of food I got the lo carb chips again. They are really pretty good, not to many snacks can beat cheese, or hot sauce.

Well I suppose I should start getting ready for work at one point or another. I don't have to be there till 10 today.

Today is now over... I work a nice full day of work. Came home cooked dinner, in a new fashion might I add. Now that my laptop is up and running better. I can blog from any room in the house. I could even blog while I was taking a dump. Very cool indeed. Not to say I have done this yet. However I was actively post in my civic forum tonight as I was cooking dinner.

I know this is not a new thing. Although new to some.

I have to get use to this keyboard again... There is and Fn key were the Ctrl key should be. Its almost pissed me off.

My lab top is now online and running smooth... Whoo paa!

I'm at Robets... Happy :)