The term you don't know what you had until you lost it is so true. I am only half way talking about my car. I still have my car its just not the same way I bought it. Its faster than I bought it. Its also screwed up now. Oh well that's aside from the point.

More so I am referring to deaths of people some what close to die in the past, I think two weeks now. For me that have always went in three's. So that brings me to my next thought who's next? The first one was a friend of mine that I went to school with. Died in a car wreck coming home from college. The next was my Grandmothers husband. So I guess that would kinda be like a step Grandpa. I really did not know him all that well. He did not like me for some other things I did a while back. But we would always say hi in passing. I was not really all that sad when he died. He has been in bad health for 7 or 8 years. I don't know, but along time. The thing that got to me when I would about it. Was how my Grandma must feel losing him. Now that I have Will it just made me think. If I were to lose him now how I would not even want to go on. That one thought that I had right there got to me. I just cant even imagine to even want to think about something like that. So when I thought that my Grandma was having the same feeling or worse (after living with someone for so long.) It just made me sad.